Why did I start this blog, man? What's the significance of my referring to you as "man" there?? What does it suggest that I was able to consider that appropriate?? What does this augur for the future of the blog? Its character? The nature of its output? Its character! Even now my blog has a character - this post in conjunction with its name, its layout, its background image - its choosing to have a background image. My considering blog posts as "output" rather than "content", attributing autonomy to it - that the blog can produce rather than be considered a vessel, a "platform for content" (why take these metaphors for granted? Bullshit! Anything can be anything - ask yourself always, "What is the most productive-pleasurable way to consider this?") Everything seems like an earth-shattering decision til I realise this is the only way it could unfold - the first stroke on the canvas. Every stroke is a first stroke. The canvas was a stroke. Things being earth-shattering decisions is a perspective-approach (metaphor) I can drop when it stops being fun. Everything is playing dressups. How do you consider yourself? Try approaching the world as a childish dandy - delicacy, fashion, tantrums and sweets. Proliferate your approaches - assume every position. What would Jesus do? What would a paranoid do? What would the King of England do? Part of the blog will be written from childish dandy position - flippant, flitting, tittering skipping singing - brimming! Overfull. Always overfull - overflowing.
I keep thinking the existence of the blog will prompt me to autogenerate content, kind of suck it out of me, rewire my brain to a machine for the production of food for it. I have had two blogs before and they've both died - they couldn't ask loud enough for what they wanted and so they starved, or they asked for it in languages I didn't know, or asked for things I couldn't give them - no difference. This blog will shape my brain as I shape it - everything does. I usually only write emails - I have no idea how to work stuff that's good and engaging without a specific person in mind - but there is another approach which says I make the stuff and people whose minds it engages will find it and meld with it and take it into themselves and develop again a relationship with it, which changes it and in turn changes me changing it changes them in a great singing shimmering feedback loop into which I'm plugged and which I hope will take on life, exceed control and evade understanding. Voluminous emails! Real voluptuous. Thousands of words! "We fill pre-existing forms and in filling them we change them and are changed" I am in eternal dialogue polylogue-cacophony with everything. A million mouths. All mine!
I don't know what this blog is about, and I'll never know, and that's brilliant.
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